A Superficial Reason: WHEN KEEPING IT REAL GOES WRONG.

I would like to apologize to my 1 reader (i look at stats, i know someone other than me reads this damn thing) for my temporary lapse in confidence and poise (hah!) earlier. It was late at night, I was nervous about the impending doom that might be my career and what one does in such a situation is usually seek out people one feels are more successful and either HATE or SELF DEPRECATE. I would delete it but i think it might be the realist thing I post here: the post looses itself sometimes and stops making sense; its like a stream of consciousness.

I woke up the following morning with my inspiration back. I'm a completely different photographer than everybody else and i don't really think at this stage in my career I should be concerning myself with who's better, who has the look, who has the advantage. I just really need to "keep my head down and power through." fuck everybody else (not literally) all i need to be concerned with at this moment in time is keeping my morals intact + make money (these often conflict) + work hard (career-wise that is).

In the spirit of inspiration:

anybody that knows me knows that I am a major nerd and treat Lord of the Rings like it is a religion (saying star wars is better is fucking blasphemy).

anyway...back to what i was saying. I was struck by Peter Jackson's weight loss and how it seems to be the go-to thing to say wow, he looks really unhealthy. Is it just me or do people that lose a drastic amount of weight seem to look like crack addicts afterward (maybe because some of them are)? Either way, he's inspiring in every way, both creatively and physically. Although, I will have to forgive him for Meet the Feebles/firing Ryan Gosling for being too fat/Lovely Bones.

eating wise I've done okay, this has been a hard week with how busy i was and how dependent i am on just grabbing things and going when hectic times arise.

only down .3 more pounds :-(

Things That Are Awesome:

speaking of weight loss...Christina Ricci has been in the press more than a few times for weight loss. Mainly I include this because Ricci has such a photogenic face, she's one of those people that looks pretty unusual but when photographed/filmed it works to her advantage.